Wednesday, April 1, 2015

Happy Thursday!

April Fools! (it's Wednesday!)

I normally post on Thursday or Friday, but the next two days are going to be busy catching up on work so I don't know if I will get a chance to post or not.

WW and my walking are just not happening this week. I've made some good choices but lots of bad ones too. I made the Classic Vegetable Soup that is a WW staple (zero points and everything is on the Simply Filling list) and had that for lunch yesterday, but then...I had spaghetti with the regular pasta because I just couldn't stand the idea of that wheat type pasta.

I may not have mentioned it before, but pasta is one of my weak spots. I will eat it until I am stuffed. It is one of my comfort foods and you know that if I'm eating it, I am stressed. On the more positive side, I had lite garlic bread with it and the meat was ground turkey, but was something I needed to avoid and I didn't.

This glitch in judgment was actually a carryover from Monday. We ate at a country cooking place for lunch and if you know anything about country cooking, you know that most of it is fried or cooked with lots of butter. Dinner would have been okay except I discovered that half a pound of large shrimp (which is SF) was not enough for two people. I quickly ran to the grocery store for more, but they didn't have fresh shrimp so I ended up with a pack of Shrimp Scampi (NOT SF). While there I picked up a thing of Orange Rolls (the kind you bake that look like cinnamon rolls) because I was frustrated that I had asked The Hubby to run to the store so I could prepare the other part of the dinner, but he didn't want to go. Yep, more stress eating and when I get like that...I simply don't care.

So here we are today. I will be getting something from McDonald's because I have a doctor appointment and I didn't think (earlier in the week) about getting something to eat (to fix) at home before I go. (I know...I know..).

Then there is the walking. I got swamped with work so didn't go yesterday. It was kind of embarrassing because I joined a FitBit challenge and everyone else in it reached their step goal. Not me though. One of the worst walking days I've ever had. All these people with 100% (and more!) and I am dead last with something like 66%.

Still, I'm not giving up. I acknowledge that on this particular week my life is running me instead of the other way around. I am going to do some serious thinking as I drive over to my appointment and figure out what I need to do to turn this around.

Anyway, you may see me Friday and you may not. I will weigh in on Friday even though I suspect that I regained my two lost pounds. It's okay though. I'm not giving up this time. I'll get through it!


Until next time~

Monday, March 30, 2015

Just Another Manic Monday

The Hubby and I had to meet with our accountant today to see about filing our taxes, so my whole day has gone off track. Since I will have to take most of tomorrow to get caught up (plus I have a webinar AND am suppose to walk tomorrow...), I decided to write my blog post today.

First, the very good news. I made it to 10,000 steps on Saturday! Yippee!!!!! We went to the mall since I still had a pair of jeans to return that I had gotten before Christmas (I love the Land's End return policy!) and while there I decided to work at getting my steps in. My feet, legs, and back were killing me that night, but I did it!!!!!

Since they didn't have any clothing that I was interested in, we ended up going into JCPenney where I bought two shirts to exercise in. They are lightweight and a little longer in the back, which I really like so now I have something to walk in when it gets warmer. (I would take a picture, but that would involve having to get up out of the chair that I'm sitting in and disturb our dog who is fast asleep near my feet! lol), so maybe I'll try to post photos next time!

Meanwhile, still having trouble with the weekend eating since my common sense seems to go out the window on Friday nights and I don't regain it until Monday. Friday started with Chinese, then it was Italian for lunch on Saturday and Zaxby's for dinner on Saturday night. I didn't fare much better on Sunday since we are at the Panda Express for lunch that day and had deli sandwiches for dinner.

I am not sure how many points that equals with Weight Watchers, but could probably round it up to a gazillion....especially since I did check to see what "Wings and Things" equals and it was at 39 points. Keep in mind...WW only gives you 49 to use for the week.

Anyway, I'm going to look at this before next weekend and see if there isn't some way I can make healthier choices while still getting to eat out. I know I can't continue to eat that way and expect to lose, but it is one habit that is going to be extremely hard for me to break.

Until next time~

Friday, March 27, 2015

Good, Bad and Ugly: The week in review

Well, this has been a week of ups and downs.

Good: I lost a pound for week two of WW. Yippee! That makes two pounds total.
Bad: This puts me back at my "anchor" weight of 282.5, which I maintained through most of last year, so basically...all I did was get myself back to where I started. :-(

Good: I'm eating better and staying more on track. Every dinner this week was Simply Filling.
Bad: Every lunch was NOT Simply Filling and if I was tracking points better it would be really bad. I'm also hungry all the time from lunch to dinner. Apparently, I need to add in more "Power Foods."
Ugly: Yesterday, I caved and just couldn't take it anymore. I went to McDonald's and got McNuggets, french fries AND a caramel sundae.

Good: I have walked twice this week. On Monday, I got the highest amount of steps I have ever had on the FitBit and was just over 8,000 steps.
Bad: I was the human slug yesterday. I ended up with about 2,000 steps and I'm not even sure how I got that many. Just wasn't into it at all.

And there you have it.

As you can see, I still have adjustments I need to make if I want to succeed this time. I'm trying to look at it as losing 10 pounds (and then another 10 and another 10) instead of staring at the real number, which now sits at 137.5 pounds to go. :-((((

I'm trying to make my walking nonnegotiable (although there is a part of me that is not wanting to go today because it is cold and windy...).

I'm still at it though, so I know that's what counts. Baby steps.

Until next time~

Tuesday, March 24, 2015

Talk Tuesday: How a Cookie Did My Weekend In

Here I am in the middle of week two for Weight Watchers. As I mentioned last week, I'm doing Simply Filling and then tracking my 49 points when I eat "off list."

Well, that's been the plan anyway. I haven't been perfect in tracking all those off list foods, but I'm becoming more aware that I'm eating them. Unfortunately, as I sit here and look at my tracking, I have a -43 weekly allowance points available because I used 105 of them over the weekend. (Uh, yeah...I know that's not how it's suppose to work...)

I started getting in trouble on Friday night when we decided to have BBQ for dinner. Although the beef was okay and the potato was okay, by the time I had a hamburger bun and put 6 points of sour cream on the potato, those weekly points were flying out the window. Then...there was half of a pecan pie (I don't even want to talk about it...).

On Saturday, I was ready to get back on track, but then lunch happened. The Hubby went to get Subway to bring home since we were working on our income taxes. I made some good choices in choosing what I wanted for lunch even though I knew it was pretty much going to wipe out the remaining points I had. But then...The Hubby came home and he hadn't brought the cookies we usually get from there. He normally has chocolate chip and I have macadamia nut. His reason? "You didn't write down that you wanted one," when he asked me to write down what I wanted. I FORGOT to write down that he should get my beloved cookie, so he just didn't get any.

Now, here's where a dieter's mentality can get you in to trouble...if you planned to eat a cookie and expected to eat a cookie, but there wasn't a cookie to (at least ME anyway) can start to resent that you are on a diet lifestyle change and if you're might just say "screw it" and decide to eat not one, not two, not three, but four Oreo Red Velvet cookies instead (which made me really sick to my stomach, but that's another story...). self sabotage didn't end there. I decided on Chinese food for dinner that night and pizza for lunch the next day. I tracked the points, but I watched them go up, up, up, up.

Sad isn't it? I knew I was doing it, but I didn't care. The genie was out of the bottle and she wasn't going to go back in without a fight.

Fortunately, by Sunday night I was able to stuff her back into that bottle (although unwillingly) and yesterday went surprisingly well. I even managed to go walking and got my highest step counter ever at just over 8,000 steps.

So, where am I going with all this? Well, mainly that I am learning that lifestyle changes don't come easily or happen overnight. I'm going to slip, but this time I am not going to let it be "do or die" like I usually do. Fall off the wagon - get back on. Fall down seven times, get up eight.

Anyway, hitting a few bumps in the road as you can see, but I'm still moving forward. Big progress for me, just have to make some attitude adjustments.

Until next time~

Friday, March 20, 2015

Friday Weigh-in: Tiny Progress


Okay, so...end of Week One on Weight Watchers and I lost....1/2 a pound. :-(

Yeah, I'm not okay with that, but at least the number didn't go in the other direction.

The interesting thing is - I am starting to see where things are going wrong, so now I can start taking steps to fix them.

Problem 1: Using too many points. I am on Simply Filling, but we get 49 points to use for stuff that is off the list. Unfortunately, by the end of the week I had tracked 77 points and that wasn't even everything I ate. 

Problem 2: Not moving enough. I am on 4 FitBit challenges and I continue to be last or second to last. If you look at my FitBit "Friends," I am at the bottom of the big list too. Not dead last and not all the way to the bottom, but certainly not where I should be.

So...there are life changes that must be made if I want to successfully lose the weight this time. For now, I'm going to continue the tracking, but my main concentration is going to be on the walking and getting those steps in. I've hit my goal (5,000 steps) maybe once this week and came close one night (needed 100+ steps, but the time changed to midnight), so getting consistent with that is the key I think.

Anyway, not the worst for me, but certainly not the best. At least this go around - I am taking it seriously. Perhaps that's a win for me even if my weight loss number is incredibly small.
Until next time~  

Thursday, March 19, 2015

Week One: Trial and Error

Since I started Weight Watchers last Friday, I just realized that this is the last day of week one.

The good news is - I'm still motivated.

The bad news is - I've got some adjustments to make as I go into the second week.

First, my lunch is not working. It's not only too time consuming to make (fried rice with vegetables and some chicken), it really doesn't feel me up at all. In fact, I'm always hungry again about an hour later. I suspect I need more protein or maybe I'm obsessing about not getting enough to eat. Not sure.

Everything hasn't been Simply Filling. I've slipped here and there. Some of it from a lack of planning and some of it from just being too hungry to care. On positive note, I have found a breakfast that works. I have been having Egg Beaters, toast (that meets the Simply Filling guidelines), hashbrown (ditto), and a fruit cup (check). Dinner on the other hand, has been hit or miss. Mostly on track, but since I forgot to buy a few things I had a misstep there too. As an example, didn't think to get something to have with pork chops, so I ended up having mashed potatoes (Idahoan).

Meanwhile, I did exercise on Tuesday. But...I got rushed so instead of walking the full circle (which is 2.75 miles), I did the smaller circle at the park where I walk and only walked about fifteen minutes. I guess that's better than nothing and at least I did stick to the plan to walk. I'm suppose to walk today, but I may get rained out.

Yeah...I know I could still walk in the rain...I just haven't reached that level of commitment yet.

Finally, still battling depression a bit. I hope that will pass because I am having a lot of trouble concentrating and my work is still suffering because of it. I just find it all very overwhelming right now. Hanging in there though.

Until next time~

Tuesday, March 17, 2015

Talk Tuesday: The Journey Begins...Again

Well, here we are again.

I have rejoined Weight Watchers (I wonder if I hold the record for rejoins?) and am officially trying Simply Filling. This week (so far) has been my trial and error week.

Since I started on Friday (the 13th no less!), this gave me my 49 points to use right away on the weekend. And use them I did. I used the 49 and by tracking that number quickly turned into 77. Yep, I went 28 points over and it wasn't even Monday yet. Worse...I didn't track anything on Sunday, so the number was actually higher than what I accounted for.

The positive part of this, however, is that it made me realize where a lot of my calories were coming from and it wasn't pretty. I shot 17 of them on pizza from Sam's Club. The Jeep needed new tires and to save time we decided to eat from the deli/cafe there. Sam's actually makes a great pizza, but it literally comes out covered in grease. I counted the one giant slice as two servings and then had 1/2 of another slice. Not one of my finer moments...but at least now I know what's happening here and it's an eye opener.

As for the week, it's actually gone pretty good. My bagel with cream cheese for breakfast is gone and now I'm eating Egg Beaters, a hashbrown (which surprise! Is Simply Filling), toast, and a fruit cup. Lunch has been fried brown rice that I've been putting veggies in. Dinner was a Lo Mein dish, which was all vegetable and then whole-wheat pasta, so also Simply Filling.

The biggest problem is that the new meals take more time to fix and this kind of makes me run even later in the day than I usually do. So, have to make some adjustments on this next week.

Meanwhile, I would like to say that "Simply Filling" is, but it's not. I am hungry and yesterday ended up eating grapes (good) and cheese (okay, but not great) and crackers (not on Simply Filling). So, as I in progress.

Anyway, I plan to go walking today so hopefully can get back into the swing of that. It's hard for me because if I'm not careful I know I will end up obsessing about this and the whole thing will fall apart. Baby steps I guess.

Until next time~