Friday, August 28, 2015

The best laid plans...

I had good intentions this week.

Really, I did.

The plan was to walk Monday, Wednesday and Friday (today) and the plan started out okay. I did walk on Monday. On Tuesday, however, I awoke and appeared to be getting a cold or the flu or...something.

I was in bad shape.

I finally figured out that I was dehydrated. My walk on Monday had been in cooler temperatures (if you consider the 80s...cooler), but the humidity level was high and I was sweated down by the time I got back home. I also had that vague headache which the body uses to tell you that something if off, but I get so many headaches, I just ignored it.

This probably wouldn't have been a big deal if I was more in shape, but as it was - it took until yesterday for me to feel somewhat normal again. (Regular aches and pains as opposed to new and unusual ones...)

So, the walking won't happen again this week unless it's less humid this evening, which is possible but not likely.

Meanwhile, after realizing (again) that I'm not getting anywhere with the point tracking, I decided to look into Simply Filling again. I discovered that WW has a book that lists a bunch of foods that are SF and supposedly makes the process easier when it comes to figuring out what to eat.

So...I decided to order the book. Until, that is, I discovered that it would cost me almost $25.00 by the time WW added their shipping and postage charges. So, the next option was to get the book from WW. I hadn't been to a meeting in a long time, and the place looked quite different. They now give you privacy when you weigh-in - kind of funny after years of just being in line behind the other person. I didn't weigh-in since I wasn't a "in-person" member, but I did decide to stay for a meeting.

I quickly remembered why I don't do the meetings. I'm just not into deciding which "super power" I possess. Hope, creativity, zest...I don't remember all of the "super powers," but...yeah...that kind of stuff is not for me. Plus, there was one woman there that pretty much dominated the entire meeting. If the leader wasn't talking - she was.

I was wondering whether meetings would help me and now I I can cross that off my list. I do think Simply Filling is doable for me...with some changes to my food choices...I say this because looking back...the weight I lost at the beginning of this journey, this year, was while I was on Simply Filling. I just need to make it work for me.

Anywhoo, that's the update for now.

Until next time~

Thursday, August 20, 2015

StrategizeThursday: Do or Do Not

I really don't know what is wrong with me. I want to lose weight, really I do...but...I just can't seem to commit to it. 

I read all these inspiring posts about people losing weight on Facebook and they...I won't say make it look "easy," but they have all figured out something that works. Meanwhile, I started in March and I've actually gained weight. What's up with that?

It's not like I don't have goals and things I want to achieve to motivate me.

  • There is a 5K in October that I want to walk
  • I have a too tight Star Wars t-shirt that I want to wear to the new Star Wars movie in December
  • I want 50 pounds (at least) gone by February.
and yet...

Nothing is happening.

I walked last week and I had plans to walk this week. But rained. It rained Monday when I was suppose to walk. It rained Wednesday when I was suppose to walk. Now...see...I am suppose to go to the gym on those days, but I didn't have that planned as a backup, so I let the rain shut me down.

I just can't seem to get my head into the game and keep it there. It all seems so very hard to do and I'm trying... but...nothing is happening.

No, I'm not giving up. I'm just frustrated. I know I can do this, so why is it not happening? Why don't I want it enough?

Anyway, I'll push through this, but this is where I'm at right now. 

Until next time~

Tuesday, August 18, 2015

Talk Tuesday: Keeping the Ducks from Wandering Off

At times, my weight loss journey really does feel like I'm trying to herd ducks. Every time I get them all lined of them wanders off.

Last week, I finally got three days of exercise in even though my eating was less than stellar. This week...well, the eating was better yesterday but then it started pouring down rain right at the time I had planned to go walking.

I wasn't going to let that deter me first. I actually went to the park where I walk...but...then...there was no one there and it was thundering. I suddenly envisioned myself getting hit by lightning (actually, a real possibility because the trail is near a lake and you are completely out in the open), so back home I came and by that time it was time to start dinner.

Obviously, I need to make contingency plans. Can't go to the park? Go to the gym. That type of thing. I'm just apparently not there yet.

I realize that I am running out of time. Those 50 pounds I want gone by my not going to happen if I don't get serious and get real about all of this. I want to do a 5K in October and I'm nowhere near ready to do that either.

I'm not quite sure what the answer is. Every time I get one duck back in line, another one wanders off. Maybe I'm trying too hard for things to be perfect. I don't know. I'm not giving up though. I just need to become a better duck wrangler.

Until next time~

Tuesday, August 11, 2015

Talk Tuesday: Try, try, try, try again

Well, I am back on plan.

...or mostly on plan anyway. This week, I recommitted to trying the Weight Watcher way...yet again. I even have my menu planned out for the week and everything!

I also finally made it to the gym. I did 35 minutes on the treadmill, which may have been about 10 minutes more than I should have done. My legs were getting sore before I even stumbled out of the gym. least I'm on my way...again.

I switched my weigh-in date back to Mondays. I weighted in at 287.5 yesterday. At the moment, I am just going to concentrate on getting out of the 280s. That's 8.5 pounds that need to go. Hopefully, that smaller number will help  me to stay better on track although I am still thinking that I would like to try for 50 by 50 (my birthday next year).

Anyway, that's it for today.

Until next time~

Friday, July 31, 2015

Freefall Friday: A Disrupted Week

If you were to ask, I would tell you that I like to be spontaneous. I get bored with routine and I think that is one of the reasons I fall off track so much.

That being said, I apparently need structure because this week fail completely off the rail in every way, shape and form.

It all started on Monday, which was to be my gym day, but I had agreed to do some pet sits this week and I basically just ran out of time to get everything done and get to the gym. (At the moment, I can only go there during certain hours because I'm not a member and someone from management has to let me in and punch my little card.)

Tuesday was more of the same (pet sit, work) and then Wednesday...I woke up with a migraine. Yep. That made the whole day go down in flames. No work accomplished, no gym, not food tracking, just existing and the pet sits (at least some money is coming in...). Thursday was more of the same (headache, little work done, pet sits). Adding to the fun, I had two pet sits, so we were eating dinner around 10 p.m.. I got to bed late, got up late this morning and....ta I's almost 2 p.m. and I have yet to have even made it upstairs to take a shower (going in a minute).

I have more pet sits next week. I have decided that I will try to make things simple for myself. I'm not going to worry about working out (I am getting plenty of steps with the pet sitting so at least I am MOVING a lot!). I'm not going to worry about tracking. I'm going to plan fast simple meals that can be made quickly. Not junk, but no new recipes and I may rely on a processed food item or two...or three..

Next week, it's all about survival.

The following week though...something must be done. Not just about the weight, but about my work routine and making the time for myself.

But....I'm not going to think about that now. I'm just going to take things one step, one hour, one day at a time.


Monday, July 27, 2015

Do This - Not That

Last week, I posted a rather innocuous post on a Weight Watcher Facebook pages stating that I was struggling with "the plan," or rather, sticking to my Point count and more particularly that I had trouble when it comes to the planning part of things.

I got a lot of "me too" comments, but then I also got a lot of "just do this" and "don't do that" posts. One in particular said "don't try to plan for more than three or four days." I almost replied "well, that's what got me into this mess," but I just decided I wouldn't comment at all and wait for my post to get bumped down on the page so the comments would stop.

The funny thing was, it was a lot of contradictory responses.

"Plan every meal."

"Just take each meal by itself - don't plan."

"Try not to use your weekly points."

"Use your weekly points - that's what they are there for...."

The thing I realized is that basically you  have to figure out what works for you. Maybe you have to be super strict. Maybe you need your plan to be more flexible. Maybe it's okay to use all those points or maybe it's not. The main thing is, you have to find something that is doable and won't drive you crazy.

What I'm realizing from all of this is that I'm not so sure that point counting is for me. Or...maybe at least right now it's not. This puts me back to trying Simply Filling again and I'm not sure that works for me either. I don't know. I'm not giving up on figuring this out, but I think for now - I will concentrate on drinking my water and getting the exercise in.

Anyway, I'm not officially quitting Weight Watchers, but I'm not going to stress over my point count this week either. Instead, I'm going to try to get the exercise in, drink the water and see how that works. I'll let you know...

Until next time~

Tuesday, July 21, 2015

Setting Goals and All that Jazz

While thinking about some ideas to get on track, I realized that tomorrow is the 22nd. That will make it approximately 7 months (or 8, depending on how you count) until my birthday.

Yep, my birthday is in February and I'll be hitting that big 5-0.

Since I have blown my plans for being at my goal weight by that time (which would mean I have to lose 140+ pounds), I had to rethink things a bit. I finally decided that instead of shooting for what is now an impossible goal, I would try something that is still within my reach.

50 pounds by the time I turn 50. That's 6 to 7 pounds a month. In theory, I should be able to lose more than that by then, but still gives me a bit of a margin since Thanksgiving and Christmas will roll in toward the end of the year.

Meanwhile, I did go by the gym/fitness center. I got a free pass for seven days. I'm going to give it a try and then evaluate how comfortable I am there. I wish they had a women's only section, but it's just one big room with cardio stuff toward the back (which includes the treadmills) and the free-weight stuff toward the front (where the macho men hang out).

Anyway, that's the plan. I'll switch my WW day to Wednesday and basically give myself a do-over as if I'm just starting. I may also try a WW meeting, but haven't quite decided yet. If I'm not careful with my time, I'll stretch myself too thin and all the balls I'm juggling will drop out of the air. WW day and a goal date of February.

Let's do this!

Until next time~