Monday, February 4, 2013
Okay, so here it is Monday morning. I am suppose to be on my "A" game and have a plan in place and raring to go.
Instead, it's about 11:40 and the morning is slipping away and I have done some blog writing, but it is what a friend of mine calls "Future Money" and not the type of writing that pays the bills.
I want to blame The Hubby for my slowness in getting started and he is partly to blame because he started his crap again this morning. I told him that we were going to need some Advil and he went into how he thinks I am taking too many of them and then asked if headaches were the reason I wasn't getting any work done. He left for work and I got on the computer and at the moment I am more p*ssed than inspired.
Obviously, we are going to have to have a discussion about his morning "pep talks." A friend of mine just told me to ignore him when he does that and I do try, but I can literally feel my subconscious trying to go back into this little role that The Hubby has set up for me.
On the other hand, I do know that it is I (me?) alone that decides my fate. I don't have to accept the role and can be a success...I just keep getting sucked back into what he and others think I should be and I wish I knew why.
He was also trying to have "the weight talk" again yesterday, but thankfully he got off on something else. The only thing I can say at this point is that I see what he's doing, so the question is --- how do I stop this roller coaster and get on to something else?