Okay, first of all I know that when you are concerned about your finances it is on your mind all the time. I get that.
But....The Hubby has now gone from asking what I have accomplished (work wise) to talking about the bills or a bill every morning. Today, it was the phone bill. As I mentioned --- we were late on the phone bill and when the money came in, he only wanted to pay one month. So...it wasn't too long before they cut the phone (and Internet) off.
Since I had told him that two were due and his response was "I don't want them to get all of my money..." --- to me this is his own fault. To him, however, the phone company is greedy and so today he wants to change phone companies and cut down the speed of our Internet service (which if anything...I need higher speed for my work...certainly not lower speed...).
He is like a bulldog chewing on a bone with this. The finances got mentioned yesterday and here we go again today with the same thing. He also had to get in a dig at me by saying that if YOU can't pay for the service you have now because you don't have any money coming in --- then you have to do something else.
Well...yeah....I can get my act together and get my income level up instead of commenting about how bad things are all the time.
Once upon a time, I was the negative one and I mean I was negative in a big way. You may think (from reading my posts) that I am miserably unhappy now, but back when we owned convenience stores I was the queen of unhappiness. Everything that came out of my mouth was negative. I was also a constant worrier. I worried about the employees stealing from us (they were). I worried about the business (we couldn't handle our finances then either...) and I worried that I would spend the rest of my life in a business that I absolutely hated (he kept wanting to get more convenience stores even though the first one we had was constantly running in a negative in the checkbook.
I have learned over time, however, that basically what is going to happen is going to happen and although I am still worried and I am still negative, I can also remind myself that it is...maybe not going to be OKAY... but that I will get through it.
Anyway, I'm not sure where I was going with this except that I am finding these morning conversations humorous in their ridiculousness. He knows he can't comment on my work, so now he is approaching for an attack from another angle. I do know that I have to pull my share of responsibility in this and I am working towards that --- it's just too bad that he can't seem to get off this merry-go-round he has created for himself because if he did, we might just be able to work together on everything and really turn our lives around.
Until next time....