Today is the day that I start the walking plan.
This means, of course, that it is suppose to rain for the next three or four days. No rain yet, but it is cloudy and supposedly will move in tonight.
In the event this happens....I am planning on using the stationary bike that is in the exercise room. I may have to clear a path to get to it (the exercise room has turned into a "catch-all" for boxes and storage and everything else...), but that is THE PLAN.
Ironically, I seem to be motivated this time, but not for the normal reasons that one decides to take up exercising. It's not about looking better, getting healthier, or feeling better....
It is because....well....because I want respect.
Over the weekend, I sent a text to the Walking Buddy (WB) and asked her is she would be interested in going to one of those paint parties with me. It was a "paint your pet" and I thought it might be kind of fun. I knew it was short notice, so I said "I would like to do this the NEXT TIME it comes around."
She replied with "I can't commit yet."
I replied "I didn't ask if you could - I asked if you would be interested."
She says "Gotch sorry distracted."
I then commented that I didn't know when the next one would be - but assume they will do another one because it's a popular class.
The next few texts were here evading giving me any type of real answer at all. She finally said "let me get back to you on that...."
I then said that it was just a "yes or no" question and then she says again "OK, I'll get back to you on that."
The reason I'm telling you this...and how it relates to my new-found commitment is that I suspect that since I am overweight --- I give off a vibe that makes people think they can treat me like that. I feel bad about myself so I put up with being second choice ( "I'll do something with you...but only if nothing better comes along...").
So...I'm officially putting myself first. I may have said that before, but it feels different this time. I want to do this for me and I want to say "screw you --- I don't need any of you."
Okay, so that's probably not the best inspiration in the world...but it's working.
I'm suppose to walk at 5 p.m. today.....let's hope the inspiration holds! I'll let you know!