I suspect this number is off a bit because at the beginning of the week my unofficial weight was 279 and over the weekend I even saw a 278.
I'm going to move on from what I weigh, however, because I want to talk about Halle Berry.
The segment was about celebrities that suffer from diabetes. It was apparently just revealed that Tom Hanks has Type 2 diabetes and several other celebrities do too...including Halle Berry.
They were interviewing Halle about her diabetes and she said that she controlled it by exercising. She then went on to say that....no matter what...she always fits exercise into her schedule.
As I went to bed, I couldn't help but think...here is Halle Berry....who I am quite certain has a much busier lifestyle than I do....and yet...she works out every day. Now...I know...that being a superstar like she is....looking good is part of her job, but still...she has to find time to fit it in. She's got a family, a career, makes appearances, films movies....and who know what else, yet....she exercises EVERY DAY.
Meanwhile...I screwed up on Monday and only did a half-hearted attempt at walking down to the mailbox and totally blew it off yesterday because...well...I had already failed for the week with Monday....
Monday was suppose to be a 15 minute walk. That's all Runners World said I had to do. 15 minutes!
And yet....I couldn't
The kicker is, I have already set myself up to fail today too. I got involved in texting a friend back and forth for almost an hour (wouldn't it have been easier and quicker to just talk by phone?) and then there was a friend having a crisis that I was writing to back and forth on Facebook and...now...it's almost 1:00. I've let myself get almost two hours behind and I haven't even had lunch yet.
This means, that when it becomes time to exercise...I will talk myself out of it because I have to get this work done. I have to get it done because I don't want to hear The Hubby talking about how I'm not contributing...so...I already know...that today...it's just not going to happen.
Where I am going with this is...that I realized just how screwed up my priorities are. Your health is basically all you've got. It should be the one thing you take care of above all else and yet every time a choice has to be made...I choose to do something else.
I can't seem to put what I need (have) to do first. I don't just do it with exercise, it's a life habit for everything. I'm not sure why, but I actually seem to make it harder on myself and do everything except for what I'm suppose to be doing.
Anyway, I want to say that starting today...the exercise is the top thing on the list, but even as I try to write that...I know that it is doubtful that I will exercise this week. I'm waiting again for Monday and I'm waiting again for a clean slate --- a "do-over" if you will.
What does this say about me? I have no clue. I just know that changes have to happen and I need to pull on those big girl panties and make them happen.