There are weeks when I know my life isn't working.
This is one of them.
I really feel like I'm just spinning my wheels here. I have exercised once this week even though we've had some warmer weather (70s - in DECEMBER!). I just feel a sense of panic about getting my work done and even though I am really trying...each day...I come up short. I'm not making the amount of money I need and even worse....I'm not making extra for Christmas money.
I just don't know what is wrong with me. I actually went to bed early last night, but then The Hubby was having a rough night (coughing, snoring, tossing, turning) and that kept me awake. I drug myself out of bed and now...now...it is almost 11:30 and I haven't even started working yet. I've been like that all week.
Anyway, I usually say I am going to regroup this weekend. I won't say that. Instead, I will say that I'm going to take some time and try to chill out. I suspect a lot of this is holiday depression. I've been running scenarios in my head about what I want to say to my mother and all that hurt keeps bubbling up even though I keep pressing it back down. Just in a bad frame of mind right now and not sure how to shake it.
Until next time....